Growing Old

OK...I'm going to voice some things that I have been pondering for a few days, now; or weeks, actually: About 3 weeks ago, I started taking care of a near-Centenarian (and why are they called 'Centenarian' and not 'Centurians,' I wonder?! That seems to make more sense to me than the former!) and...I have to tell you straight out: granted, I probably won't be around to celebrate my 100th birthday BUT...IF I get to the point of: senility; alzheimer's; or anything else where my scruples are missing, I really just DON'T want to be around, any longer!!!!!!! Pain, of course, is one thing that would not be much fun to have to live with but...oh, man...having to take stool softeners because I can't get up and move around...because my knees hurt too much?! Well, heck...I could say that, right now: my knees are KILLING me from ALL the SQUATS that I'm having to do pushing down and pulling back up britches for the lady to go to the loo! And...I DON'T want someone else wiping my butt! And...I wouldn't want anyone forcing all sorts of pills down my throat, neither; nor...meals every two hours! I look at ALL the efforts of 8(!!) PEOPLE who are employed to care for ONE elderly person and I am just FLOORED at the efforts!!!! YES...it's NICE to have a "nice, long life" but...if you just sit under an electric blanket wearing men's cotton work gloves, all day, just to keep your hands warm AND you're BLIND and hard of hearing even with expensive hearing aids...I don't think that the "quality of life" is very much there, anymore!

And...of course, then, there are the "mad men" like Hitler and Stalin (and, of course, MANY in modern times, I'm SURE!!) who just want to get rid of any and everyone who isn't just "perfect," anymore; hence, why the Dr. Kevorkians of the world aren't allowed to offer their "goodwill" services very readily...although I understand that Sweden seems to have implemented this Euthanasia thing and seem to be quite a "happy nation" for it! But...therein lies the real question: "Where is the line drawn?" Yes...I "get" that these are "terminal illnesses" that get dealt with like this; but, also, how many fudge this term so that they can just get rid of people who are aging?

For now, I'm still just hoping that I will have a long and happy life and...then drift off, in my sleep so as not to bother anyone much. Being with this elderly woman and also reflecting on the death of someone who, up until getting a rare form of pancreatic cancer, could probably have lived a couple of decades longer, makes me just wonder "WHY?" Or...the people who are so loved by a gazillion people die and...then there are people like me that seem to have alienated myself to most of the world, not even trying; I think that the only 2 that would notice if I were gone would be my children! :-(

So...what are your thoughts on aging and the whole euthanasia thing? What do you think needs to take place when the "quality of life" ends before your "earthly vessel" does?

tell him... celine dion / barbra streisand

This song is running through my mind, right now. Gotta go get a tissue, now! :-/

Hope you enjoy!

Lyrics:

Celine:I'm scared
C:So afraid to show I care
C:Will he think me weak
C:If I tremble when I speak
C:Oooh
C:What if
C:There's another one he's thinking of
C:Maybe he's in love
C:I'd feel like a fool
C:Life can be so cruel
C:I don't know what to do

Barbra:I've been there
B:With my heart out in my hand
B:But what you must understand
B:You can't let the chance
B:To love him pass you by

B&C:Tell him
B&C:Tell him that the sun and moon
B&C:Rise in his eyes
B&C:Reach out to him
B&C:And whisper
B&C:Tender words so soft and sweet
C:I'll hold him close to feel his heart beat
B:Love will be the gift you give yourself

B:Touch him C:(Oooh)
B:With the gentleness you feel insideC: (I feel it)
B:Your love can't be denied
B:The truth will set you free
B:You'll have what's meant to be
B&C:All in time you'll see

Oooh
C:I love him B:(Then show him)
C:Of that much I can be sureB: (Hold him close to you)
C:I don't think I could endure
C:If I let him walk away
C:When I have so much to say

B&C:Tell him
B&C:Tell him that the sun and moon
B&C:Rise in his eyes
B&C:Reach out to him
B&C:And whisper
B&C:Tender words so soft and sweet
B:Hold him close to feel his heart beat
C:Love will be the gift you give yourself

C:Love is light that surely glows
C:In the hearts of those who know
C:It's a steady flame that grows
B:Feed the fire with all the passion you can show
C:Tonight love will assume its place
B:This memory time cannot erase
B&C:Your faith will lead love where it has to go

B&C:Tell him
B&C:Tell him that the sun and moon
B&C:Rise in his eyes
B&C:Reach out to him
B&C:And whisper
B&C:Whisper words so soft and sweet
B:Hold him close to feel his heart beat
C:Love will be the gift you give yourself

Oooh
B&C:Never let him go

Nichole Nordeman & Amy Grant: "I'm With You" - Official Lyric Video

LOVE this beautiful song. Hope you enjoy!

Switchfoot - "Restless"

This song won't stop running through my head. It's one of Jon Foreman's 'Switchfoot' band's new songs that we were blessed to hear, on KLOVE, before it [just recently] was released on their newest album 'Vice Verses.' My favorite Christian band! These dudes have an amazing ministry! If I could, I'd be a backup singer to a band like this band, someday, when I have more time! LOVE them! Hope you enjoy!

Lyrics:

I am the sea on a moonless night,
Calling, falling, slipping tides
I am the leaky, dripping pipes
The endless aching drops of light
I am the raindrop falling down,
Always longing for the deeper ground
I am the broken, breaking seas
Even my blood finds ways to bleed

Even the rivers ways to run
Even the rain to reach the sun
Even my thirsty streams,
Even in my dreams

I am restless, I am restless
I am restless, looking for you
I am restless, I run like the ocean to find your shore
I’m looking for you

I am the thorn stuck in your side,
I am the one that you left behind,
I am the dried up doubting eyes
Looking for the well that won’t run dry

Running hard for the other side
The world that I’ve always been denied
Running hard for the infinite
With the tears of the saints and hypocrites

Oh blood of black and white and gray
Death and life and night and day
One by one by one
We let our rivers run

I am restless, I am restless
I am restless, looking for you
I am restless, I run like the ocean to find your shore
Looking for you

I can hear you breathing,
I can hear you leading
More than just a feeling
More than just a feeling
I can feel you reaching
Pushing through the ceiling
'til the final healing
I'm looking for you

Until the sea of glass we meet
At last completed and complete
The tide of tear and pain subside
Laughter drinks them dry

I’ll be waiting
Anticipating
All that I aim for
What I was made for
With every heartbeat
All of my blood bleeds
Running inside me
Looking for you

I am restless, I am restless
I am restless, looking for you
I am restless, I run like the ocean to find your shore
I'm looking for you

I can feel you breathing
I can feel you leading
More than just a feeling
More than just a feeling
I can feel you reaching
Pushing through the ceiling
'til the final healing
I'm looking for you
I'm looking for you

K-LOVE - Anthem Lights "Can't Get Over You" LIVE

Here is an acoustic version of one of my favorite songs that I hear on my favorite Christian Radio stations, KLOVE.com. Hope you enjoy!

Lyrics:

I love the way You love like no other
It's got nothing to do with anything that I do
Time and time again You forgive me
So this time I choose to stay here with You

Hold me
Pull me just a little bit closer
I don't want to lose this moment
You're love has covered me
And now I can't get over You
I can't get over You
I can't get over You
I just can't get over You

Here in the arms of my Father
Only grace can be found
So I lay my fears down
Nothing is the same anymore
You've changed me from the inside out
Now my heart is beating and it's singing won't You...

Hold me
Pull me just a little bit closer
I don't want to lose this moment
You're love has covered me
And now I can't get over You
I can't get over You
I can't get over You
I just can't get over You

I can't get over You

I can't get over the way
Your love stays the same, oh Lord
I can't get over the way
Your love stays the same, oh Lord

Even through the good and the bad times
You stay the same
So my song will remain
Lord...

Hold me
Pull me just a little bit closer
I don't want to lose this moment
You're love has covered me
And now I can't get over You
I can't get over You
I can't get over You
I just can't get over You

I can't get over You
I can't get over You
There's nothing I can't do
I just can't get over You

I can't get over You

Elton John - Sorry seems to be the hardest word - Live at The Greek Thea...

I grew up w/this song. I love Elton John's songs...sad or otherwise. They're all just...beautiful. Definitely one of the BEST piano players I have ever heard!

Hope you enjoy.

Lyrics:

"Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word lyrics
What have I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there

What do I do to make you want me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over
And sorry seems to be the hardest word

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word

What do I do to make you love me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I do when lightning strikes me
What have I got to do
What have I got to do
When sorry seems to be the hardest word

Taylor Dayne - Love Will Lead You Back

Lyrics:

Saying goodbye is never an easy thing
But you never said, that you'd stay forever
So if you must go
Well, darlin, I'll set you free
But I know in time
That well be together
Oh, I wont try
To stop you now from leaving
Cause in my heart I know

(chorus)
Love will lead you back
Someday I just know that
Love will lead you back to my arms
Where you belong
Im sure, sure as stars are shining
One day you will find me again
It wont be long
One of these days
Our love will lead you back

One of these nights
Well I'll hear your voice again
Youre gonna say, oh, how much you miss me
You walked out this door
But someday you'll walk back in
Oh, darling I know
Oh, I know this will be
Sometimes it takes, sometime out on your own now
To find your way back home

(repeat chorus)

But I wont try to stop you now from leaving
Cause in my heart I know...oh yeah

(repeat chorus)

Love will lead you back
Someday I just know that
Love will lead you back to my arms
It wont be long
One of these days
Our love will lead you back

Ricki-Lee - Breathe

OK so...I don't know where the heck I've been that I've not heard this woman, before! She's got an AMAZING voice!!!!

Love the beat and message. Great! Not sure why everyone feels like they've got to keep everything to themselves! That is not the message that God tells us in Galatians 6:2 - "Carry each others' burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ." Thank you, Lord. Now, just need to share the good news w/the world that they don't have to go it alone! :-D

Lyrics:

Where do all the lonely people go?
Friends they thought they knew don't want to know
Try to find a place to hide as they're falling to their knees
Someone, Catch them, please

Everybody Hurts Everybody Aches
Everybody Falls Everybody Breaks
Just Breathe, Let it out and, Breathe
Everybody Cuts Everybody Bleeds
Every hidden scar is justified
So Breathe, let it out and, Breathe, just Breathe

Can you feel the circus in your head?
Don't you know you're easily misled
Stand up if you give a damn, it's slowly killing you
Don't you, feel it, too?

Everybody Hurts Everybody Aches
Everybody Falls Everybody Breaks
Just Breathe, Let it out and, Breathe
Everybody Cuts Everybody Bleeds
Every hidden scar is justified
So Breathe, let it out and, Breathe, just Breathe

So where do all the lonely people go?
Stand up if you give a damn (if you give a damn)

Everybody Hurts Everybody Aches
Everybody Falls Everybody Breaks
Just Breathe, Let it out and, Breathe
Everybody Cuts Everybody Bleeds
Every hidden scar is justified
So Breathe, let it out and, Breathe, just Breathe.